“When they don’t love you the way you want to, you mourn that for however long you need to. But then you get back up and you remind yourself. You are not a reflection of the people who can’t love you. You will love again. You will be loved again.” - Caitlyn Siehl”—(via defeating-reality)
It's crazy to me that the world really keeps spinning no matter what happens in life. Like, people just move on and stop worrying about people? "Oh, your parents died? That was 4 months ago, I have no sympathy left." "Oh, you got your heartbroken? That sucks, but it's been a week and I'm tired of you being sad so I'm not going to talk to you anymore." But when we're on the other end, we know how bad it hurts. Continuously. So, why are we so quick to blow off other people's pain?
All I want is to be numb; to not feel anything. But instead, in this moment where I long for numbness, I feel more alive than ever. I feel everything; every bit of pain, every smile, every rain drop, the sleep in my eyes… I am hyper-aware. Everyone keeps saying time will improve these feelings of pain and eventually the memories of you will fade. But every memory that gets further away just increases the pain.
You. The one thing I wanted to hold onto more than anything else. You’re slipping away. And I have no choice but to accept that.